I have made a lot of progress with this blog considering I just installed WordPress yesterday after creating a custom design. After configuring WordPress (which was a snap!) I started on creating my first custom WordPress theme (which has also been pretty good considering it is my first). The bulk of the time spent on the theme was figuring out why my CSS was making the page look so crazy!

So now I’ve decided to take a short break from putting the final touches on my theme to write about something that has been on my mind for the past few hours.

Tonight I went out with a friend for dinner and then to the local tea house to finish off the night. While we waited for her hot chocolate and my matcha latte I saw a girl I knew sitting at one of the tables with a guy I didn’t know. About two weeks ago I had asked this girl out for coffee after meeting her at a friend’s birthday party. I asked her out with a simple one-line message through FaceBook, “I’m thinking you should let me take you out for coffee on Wednesday”.

The message was a big hit, I received a full-page reply stating that what I had sent was the most confident ask-out that she had received in a long time and that she liked it. But it went on to say that she was interested in someone else and didn’t think it would be fair to him to come out for a coffee.

Fair enough, I thought. I appreciate the fact that she just said it straight-up without leaving room for me to think that I would just have to wait a little while longer or convince a little more. It’s not something that you receive from girls most of the time.

Seeing her made me think of a conversation I had with another friend earlier in the day about this other girl that I was interested in and pursued and kept on the burner for about a year while she was overseas doing missions work. She had left about a month after I asked her out, her declining because she was about to leave. I took her response to mean that she didn’t want to get into a relationship right before she left, not that she wasn’t interested.

She came back a year later with a fiance. I have spent some time with her and her fiance since, but for about 2 hours of our initial conversation she kept referring to me as “Darren”, which isn’t even close to my name! How did she forget my damn name?!

About two weeks ago I asked my waitress out to hit some balls at the driving range. My car broke down before we were able to get together and I phoned her to try and reschedule, but during the conversation one of our cells dropped the call (I think) and when I phoned her back my call rang through but she didn’t answer. I haven’t heard from her since.

So I wonder, what is it about me that keeps me from getting someone? Is it something to do with my personality or is it just God keeping someone out of my life at this point because I’m not ready? If it is that I’m not ready, what do I need to do to be ready?

I just needed to rant on this for a little while before continuing on, because it bothers me.

That’s all, as you were…

Tags: Dating, Relationships, Women

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